Ijaazat

Ijaazat, probably one of the best movies I have seen so far. It came out in 1987, was directed by Gulzar. Naseeruddin Shah and Rekha were the protagonists of this mind bogglingly emotional movie. A two and half hour movie revolves around Sudha (Rekha), Mohinder (Naseeruddin Shah) and Maya (Anuradha Patel) and labyrinth relations among them.

Mohinder and Sudha, who were separated 5 years ago, bump into each other at a railway waiting room and one rainy night. As the night goes by they start unfolding the happenings before their marriage went into shambles. Mohinder is in love with Maya. Maya, who does not believe in marriage, is also in love with him but is non committal on marriage. Meanwhile Mohinder gets forced by his family to marry Sudha. Mohinder tries to reach to convey the happenings and convince Maya, but she is not in town. So in no-go situation he ties the knot with Sudha, after he explains her about his past relationship and also promises of putting things behind.

After marriage, Sudha finds Mohinder trying hard to forget the past and yet not succeeding in that. One fine day Maya comes back to town and learns about Mohinder's marriage with Sudha. As she couldn't stand the fact, she attempts to commit suicide. Moved by her condition, Mohinder lends emotional support in fixing her back in shape. Sudha, who is unaware of this whole suicide attempt, reckons that Mohinder is still in love with Maya and leaves him forever and also writes not to look for her.

After 5 years of this episode, she finds out from Mohinder about the suicidal attempt of Maya and also Maya's belief over the possibility of polygamous relationship among the three of them. Sudha also learns that Maya got killed in a road accident right after Mohinder got the note from Sudha to not to look for her. Sudha feels remorseful for deserting Mohinder without knowing the facts. But the climax of the movie adds an unending trauma to the viewers leaving them in a pleasant pain.

The movie revolves around three characters. At one point Mohinder had the options to go for, and at the end he was left alone with his plight itself. The movie has a mix of peculiar and typical characters of our own society. Mohinder seems to be very indecisive, neither he could forget Maya nor he could justify his marriage to Sudha. He got entangled with himself in the cobweb of uncertain mind, which consists of his insurmountable love for Maya and irrefutable respect for Sudha as his wife. Sudha, who is the sharpest of the bunch wouldn’t hesitate to take the decision of leaving Mohinder as per the demand of situation. Maya, a radical feminist, and whimsical character among three, has a different set of ideas on life. At one point she doesn’t believe in marriage at all and at another she believes that she would be accepted by Sudha to be a part of bigamy.

It seems very confusing how three lives get spoiled by affection. It is equally enthralling to see the way protagonist gets disturbed by the things at home that constantly remind him of his ex-girlfriend, Maya. The more he tries to get diverted the little he gets succeeded. Sometimes small incidents of an affair would leave large impressions that take more than a lifetime to come out of. I have seen many movies that have triangular love story aspect to them. But among all those this one is one of the best, just like Sangam.

I don’t think this blog would be enough to write about the songs in Ijaazat. All songs are the best ones to date. All of the songs are eloquently written by Gulzar, and sweetly sung by Asha Bhonsle. A special movie with spectacular lines of dialogues penned down by Gulzar. He is the best in reflecting the plight through dialogues. Each dialogue of the movie is unique just like another. One of the shayiris in the movie as follows.

chalte chalte mera saaya

kabhi yu karta hai zameen se uthkar ..

saamne aakar haath pakadkar kehta hai

abki baar main aage aage chalta hun

aur tu mera peecha karke

dekh zara kya hota hai!

Constant Change!!

Seasons are changing, of course seasons are bound to change. Some seasons are so welcoming that you can not say NO, and some seasons are so intrusive that you can not hideout yourself. For me, this season has been embracive and attractive.

As someone said, you don’t see things as they are but as you are. Probably, that’s true. It’s not the change in season; it must have been the changes occurring in my life. We all know that we all change every minute of life, probably a bit exaggeration, at least we all change according to time. But we kind of acknowledge the change that we like. Perhaps, I am doing the same here, acknowledging the change I like or the change that has affect on my lifestyle. With that, let me change my approach here (although, I am not changing my intension).

My life has been changing the roads so often, if not all the time. One day I find myself interesting, and annoying at the other instance. At one moment, I find myself lonely and at the other instance, I enjoy my aloofness. Sometimes, I am gentle, sometimes I am cruel. Like this, I find myself in all kind of moods at one time or another. What I like most in all of them, I am not sure, probably the one where I bleed and /or the perhaps the one where I read, and of course the one, for sure, when I am with me, being secluded, I enjoy those silent screams beaming out of me in pleasant pain to reach the sky of never ending hope. That’s my favorite part.

Looks like its time to say good bye to that seclusion. Yes, I am giving up my favorite segment of life. I have decided to come grips with the detachment of detachment. But before I isolate the isolation, let me pay homage to riveting section of life. One has to listen to oneself to understand what one wants to be or what one needs to be. I owe a lot to this detachment phase that I have gone through. This phase clearly taught me the magnitude of attachment and measure of disconnection. Sometimes, people ought to live alone, for sometime to comprehend the fact that life is not what it seems. I feel astonished to look at myself after all these changes. This ‘Me’ is not something that shaped up in a day or two. I had undergone different sectors with constant and consistent observation. I am truly not what I was. I was rustic, arrogant and adamant to some extentand obscure at times. It took me sometime to wipe out the dark clouds and to understand that my foot too needs ground to walk around.

That’s all past, bygones are bygones. One doesn’t need to remember the past as long as he never forgets the essence. Now, let me tell you about ‘change’ (I think that’s what I did, all this time). This change is a welcoming, promising and a potential change. I will write up more on this ‘change’ next time.

Tantalizing Three Yrs...

It has been three tremendous years to my job life today. I still can’t believe myself that I have got launched three years back into the world of industrial manufacturing. Time flies, doesn’t it? But these three years were roughly smooth paths and the knowledge gained in these three years is truly unfathomable.

In those swaying moods of the path alteration, I stuck to my own field, where I felt I at least had an acquaintance, if not the expertise. It was not an easy task, as some of the most well rated mechanical engineers had already bid adieu to the field. At that point I was perplexed, frustrated, and aggravated. Fortunately, as always, luck embraced me warmly, just in time, as I was about to get froze with lackluster response from employers. That was when I landed into the world of machines and money.

These three years journey was really enthralling. Every day there was at least a single occasion to learn something new. All the theories and concepts that we learned back in school (if only one remembers..) would find an incident/situation where they need to be applied. We understand those theories better and start concentrating on the functioning of the tool or process. I still remember my college days, where I used to accept the data as given, but now I tend to ponder the concept behind the requirement. The approach to a problem has been better day after day. I see myself as a better engineer than I was before. Like all the phases, even this job phase has some ups and downs, some rough stages. But without plight, it would be hard to distinguish the bright.

In these three years, I have already switched companies once. I am sailing in the second boat, which I thought would be better, in fact it indeed is better. But no matter how many companies we toggle, we will remember our first job forever, just like first love, first kiss and first break-up. After all, the first employer was the only the one who believed in your abilities and kindled the light of hope in you by honing the skills to stand up to the competitive market. I am very grateful to my first employer, my manager and my colleagues for encouraging me to keep running in the marathon of market.

These three years brought many changes in my life. I am more thoughtful, I am more emotional, I am more energetic and I am living a better life. Anyway, I wish/hope future will always be as bright as the time has been so far. I wish to write many more anniversaries like this.

Three cheers to thee years… hip hip hurray!!